Dream.Reflect.

Throbbing

jasminnn — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 14:21:08 +0000

Heart ache. Head pain. Tears stream down. I am feeling very upset now. Because everyone around me is so depress about their results. While I’m on the other side. Though I got 23, I pass everything! That’s all I could ever ask for. Some may say “you get so high,not sad meh?” To tell you the truth, nope! I’ve work hard for most of it and also, you have to see the bell curve. It was quite high. Hehe. But I remember praying and asking God to bless me for all passes. What more could I ask for? Actually a bit sad that I never get 15 but I’m happy cause I still can go poly Now I’m deciding for my courses!

But still, reading everyone tweets and texts, I feel damm sad now. Emo Nemo…

Idk what to put

jasminnn — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 13:14:28 +0000

Ok can, these few days had been much entertaining. Firstly, this week made me feel that I am such a fool. I’ve been a fool. I’m upset and its all because of my pre-judgement. I still feel guilty and am still but I’m going to learn from it! Hahah, another funny thing is that, after everything, you’ve gain my trust. But because of what happen recently,lost. Unbelievable.

Hopekids ^^

jasminnn — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 13:07:02 +0000

Earlier this morning, I went Hopekids! Was glad that I went because all the kids not only misses me but I miss them too! Really want to see all of them continually loving God and serving Him! Anyway, something that I can’t stand is that, as much as we want to play with the kids, we should jolly well know when to play and when to ask them to listen to what God has to tell them through the actors/actresses and others. There were this bunch of people that kept playing with the kids and I was kinda piss off. And when I’m correcting a few kids, one of them keep poking me for fun. But it isn’t funny at that point of time. Okay, to cut everything short, know when’s the right time.

Friends?

jasminnn — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 17:15:42 +0000

So what are friends for? Omgggg,till now, I find it hard to decipher that. A moment someone can be so nice and another moment,they are angry. What! Y’know,sometimes I find it hard to understand my friends. Even those that I’ve known for years. To put it simply, I can only understand one of my guy friend which so happen to be my bestfriend.

As we all grow up,we meet new people,make new friends. Slowly they become your bestfriends. But slowly,no matter how much you want to be there for the person,the person will choose to tell the other person about his/her problems or totally forget that you’re there to help. That’s how I feel right now. And the person that I can share with is only my bestfriend. He can relate a little but at least he understands. He lends a ear to me. What more can I ask for? Sometimes it is really hard to make friends. I become weary of their motives and everything. What can I do? Make it stop? I can’t. Through those hurts,how can I ever forget?

Does it even pays to be nice? Look what I have done to myself. Now I have to fend for myself. Does it means that people can forget me when they don’t need me and only when they feel down then they tell me things?

2011

jasminnn — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 15:27:44 +0000

Today is the last lifegroup of 2011. One year plus with this group. Through all the thick and thin, I’ve really see this group grow in quality. We may not grow in numbers but I believe soon! God will pour in the new harvest when the new wineskin are properly build. Sat down at skate park and everyone did point out what they love about the group and what can we improve. I’m glad that there are more love cause previously,when we talked through all these as a lg,there were more improvements compared to love. At least now,I see the change

As the year is about to end in 3 days time, really want to pray for a much clearer vision for the group to walk towards to and that we will work hard and grow in quantity but also,not forgetting quality. ^^ Jiayou my lifegroup members if you happen to read this post. I really love you girls a lot!

Psalm 113

jasminnn — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 17:43:17 +0000

MSG

“Hallelujah! You who serve God, praise God! Just to speak his name is praise! Just to remember God is a blessing-now and tomorrow and always. From east to west, from dawn to dusk, keep lifting all your praises to God! God is higher than anything and anyone, outshining everything you can see in the skies. Who can compare with God, our God, so majestically enthroned, Surveying his magnificent heavens and earth? He picks up the poor from out of the dirt, rescues the wretched who’ve been thrown out with the trash, Seats them among the honored guests, a place of honor among the brightest and best. He gives childless couples a family, gives them joy as the parents of children. Hallelujah!”

God is really good in our life! Everyday in our life,we should praise God. No matter good or bad! How I wish I am able to do that w/o fail everyday! Praising God the way He is. Though He is up there, God never look down on anyone but pick us up when we are at the lowest point of our life and guide us out of them. We shouldn’t feel just honoured that God seat us beside Him but feel thankful that there is such a person who is there to help ^^ Truthfully,I like the last part of the whole chapter. It says how God creates a happy family for those that wants a baby.

Praise the Lord.

Management.

jasminnn — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 15:24:16 +0000

I really need to learn how to be patience with people! I am seriously admiring at how I used to be so patience with someone in the past! Oh boy,got to change and really work close with the holy spirit! Must really have the fruit of the spirit in my life!

Head over to courts to have family dinner and dad bought a new tv and a ear-piece for me! Took the cab home and guess what? The taxi driver was driving at the speed of 50. I am so impatient. And I kept complaining to my mum :c now I feel so bad. I’m going to repent and cry. No lah,I won’t cry but I will feel sorry. He’s just doing his job man.

It’s the 26 of December and I’m still writing Christmas cards to those who I haven’t gave! ^^ so sleepy. Omg,better do qt! Maybe I’ll type what I learn in my WordPress! Goodnight! ^^

Doctor

jasminnn — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 17:33:48 +0000

Ah, ever since Monday,my stomach have been giving me problems! Just that on Saturday,it became worse. My tummy hurts every moment and then it goes and comes back again! What is this! :’c Every time,whenever I take bus,I will also get headache. Which leads to me getting the urge to puke. If it still persist then I’ll pay a visit to the doctor!

Anyway, O level result is coming out in 2weeks time! I’m still having mix feeling but I want to trust God in whatever result I get. No matter how good or bad it might be,I want to thank God for it still! May God bless those who are taking results and me! God is great and He definitely has a better plan for us and it is up to us if we want to obey God. Of course,many will choose to obey but there are the some who chose not to. They think that their way is better than God ways.

But I want to be the kind of person that has my deepest foundation I’m the WOG and constantly praying and seeking God for answer instead of man! Nothing is impossible when we believe and trust!

Many thanks God!

jasminnn — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 17:19:19 +0000

Many thanks to God! Really really want to thank Him for placing so many people in my life! People who actually walk away from God start to come back as they find themselves missing God’s presence or missing the church. Today is Christmas service. I’m really praying that the many visitors we EL1 bring would all come with soften heart and know God! In the midst of chionging cards now! Jiayou people and Jasmin ^^

The call

jasminnn — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 15:56:16 +0000

What did God see in me that people or even me don’t see? Faith. I really want to have my child-like faith back one again! Meh, I miss how I used to serve God in the past! So fervent! Seriously, I’m feeling jealous of my past now. How funny is this! HAHA!

Oh man, my acne are poppin’ out againzcxxzxc. What happen? I think due to exams hur.. Haha! Feel like scrapping my face. *itchy fingers*

I can’t be lazy anymore! Start doing qt, do what I’m suppose to do, running! Oh and yes, now is the holidays and I’m picking up a new skill which is baking/cooking! Can’t wait to start cooking/baking! Hope my food taste nice and that I can make it and give people on Christmas!

I’m glad. So glad. Now I know my heart. in the past, I didn’t understand and whatever I do, I need your attention. Slowly, I find myself distance myself from God and I told myself, ‘No,you can’t do this anymore. Go back to God’. And then, no more. Glad that I don’t feel anything now. Perfect peace in my heart/mind/soul. Serving God is no longer a dread but joy^^ Sarang!